September is our love month.

It was September when we first met each other.
And eventually, it was September when we fell in love with each other.

This coming September 19, 2013, it will be our 5th year anniversary.

I'll try to blog about our love story. All the ups and downs.
It was never easy to be in love at the young age.
Actually, it was more on tough times than the smooth.
But I'm glad that we're still together after everything we've been through.
Most of the time, I wanna stop fightin' for this love.
I wanna give him up because sometimes I think that will make him happy.
But, he's the one who won't give up on us.
And that is what I'm truly thankful for.
He won't give up on me and our kids.

That's why even though I still regret on what happened to us, on the brighter side, I'm happy to be with him and the kids.

And if ever I have the power to bring back the time, I will still choose to be with them, only in a different situation. To be in love at 18 and be a mom at 19. If ever I can redo it, I would finish my studies and find a job the moment that I knew I was pregnant when I was 18.  

Anyway, this is for you Baby Daddy.

Thank you baby Daddy for being strong and believing that we'll make it through.
Until now, I know that we still have problems. But, thank you for making me laugh at those problems.
You and the kids are my strength and love. You're reason why I'm still alive and fightin' in this crazy world.
I love you and happy month-long anniversary!

Our helpful ate and my 8 months old baby

How's everybody?

I hope you are all fine and safe with your family.

Well, it didn't stop raining here since Sunday. But, it didn't stop me from washing our clothes as well.

Di ba nga I told you we just came home from Ilocos? So ibig sabihin I have loads of labahan to do.

It's a good thing that my little ate helped me in hanging our clothes. She's super willing to help and I'm lovin' it. Here's a video of my ate putting a shirt in a hanger.

Note: Di ko po siya pinilit. She's willing to learn so I taught her how to do it.

Aliw lang noh? I hope after 10 years she's still willing to help me doing the household chores. 

Another thing that makes me a proud mama of my little ate is that she knows how to use the mop. When she sees a puddle inside our house, she gonna grab the mop and wipe it. I even try to stop her at first but when she told me that, "Mommy, ako na. Ate na ak-ho.", I just let her do it. She's growing up so fast, indeed! Plus she's growing up so smart and responsible (despite of her being late in her language skills. I'll make another post about this). I'm so proud of you baby. You're still my baby no matter what.

Speaking of baby, my little Allodia just turned 8 months yesterday! That is so fast baby girl! It seems only yesterday when I can still feel you inside my tummy. But look at you now,

Oh, such a darling! She's so cute in that dress! Her ate used to wear that too when she's at her age.

I feel nostalgic now.

Anyway, since its my baby's birth month, we should celebrate, right?

We planned to buy a Braso de Mercedes in Red Ribbon earlier yesterday and just have it delivered here in our house para di na kami lumabas. But then when I called the Red Ribbon Delivery hotline, they told me that they can't do delivery in our place due to bad weather.

Then I watched the news, only to find out that Marikina River is on a critical level already!
Nagtaka pa talaga ako ha, eh magdamag ang ulan kaya malamang mataas na tubig doon.
That made me realized that the way going to Eastwood from our house is not passable anymore.

Red Ribbon Eastwood branch supposed to do the delivery cause its the nearest branch in our home that does delivery. So hindi na talaga sila pwedeng magdeliver cause they have to pass the floodway going to our house.
Another realization, siguro kaya di pa ako pinayagan ni God na magwork kasi He knew that this gonna happen. Ayaw lang niya siguro akong mastranded sa Eastwood(its where I'm supposed to work) kaya dinelay niya muna ang pag work ko. Okay. Thank You God!

Anyway, back to the story tayo. Siyempre, as a mother na hindi susuko para sa anak, may plan B ako. I tried searching Goldilocks, if they do delivery. Meron, they deliver. Pero when I try to call them using our telephone, wala na palang dial tone ang telephone namin. Nacut na ata ang line namin because of the weather.

Haaaays! So, plan C naman ako. My plan is to go to the Robinson's Supermarket near our place cause my baby daddy remembered that Simply Bread has a store there. So I got ready to go there. But when I went to our main road, its baha na pala already. Plus, there's no more tricycle going out of our subdivision anymore. Tsk, tsk.

So plan D tayo. Kailangan magcelebrate dahil 8 months na ang baby ko. I will feel really guilty kasi if we can't celebrate it. Ang sa akin naman kahit simple lang, basta malaman lang ng baby ko na sinelebrate namin ang birth month niya just like we used to do in her ate's first year noon. So eto na po ang plan D.

I just bought brownies in the bakery nearby our place. That's only for 20php. Tapos nilagayan ko lang ng candle. And PRESTO! Happy 8th month Allodia!

Supposed to be bibili pa ako ng stick-o and nips or cream stix pang lettering sana. Kaya lang isang buong 1000php bill ang hawak. Wala daw panukli kaya di na ako bumili. 

Hayaan mo anak. Babawi na lang kami sa birthday mo. We love you kahit ano pang mangyari. Tsaka di ba, ang importante eh yung magkakasama tayo,? Kasi pag magkakasama tayo, parang araw-araw PASKO! Mwah! 

   

Bad vibes!

Hi! How's your rainy day?

Hayyys. Well I'm sad, depress and angry right now.

I'm sad because hindi ako pinayagan ni Melvin na pumunta sa upcoming reunion namin ng barkada ko nung college on Saturday. :(

I'm depress because feeling ko parang porket siya ang kumikita sa amin, siya na dapat ang masusunod sa lahat ng bagay, regardless kung anuman ang opinion or mararamdaman ko about sa bagay na iyon. :(

I'm angry because I've talked to him in a nice way but he shouted at me. I can say that he freaked out when I told him about my plans this weekend. :(

Okay. Bago pa ako ulanin ng comments eto po muna yung plan DAPAT namin ng friends ko...

Since, Christine and her kids will be going back to L A on Monday, we planned  to have a reunion before they leave. We settled it as Saturday, 1 pm in Christine's granny's place in Retiro, QC. Pero dahil nung Sunday namin plinano yan, nagbago and magbabago pa yan. So, nung Monday sabi ni Amelou hindi daw siya pwede ng Sat kasi may practice siya sa church nila. Thursday lang daw siya puwede. Eh si Crystal naman may work ng weekdays, so gabi lang siya puwede on Thursday. Sabi ko naman hapon na lang sana kasi gusto ko isama kids ko. So balik Saturday 1pm ulit kami. Si Amelou na lang ang nagadjust. Nagpaalam ako kay Melvin and pumayag siya. Tapos kahapon, Tuesday, sabi ni Christine, sa bahay na lang daw nila sa Malabon kami magreunion kasi maghahanda daw sila ng konti kasi birhtday naman ng bunso niya sa 28. So parang early celebration na lang daw. Medyo hindi okay kela Crystal and Amelou kasi ang layo. For me naman, kahit taga Pasig ako okay lang yun.. Kasi lrt 2 to lrt 1 plus jeep na lang ang drama namin kesa kung magtataxi kami from here( Pasig) to Retiro(QC) bonggang yayaman ang masasakyan naming taxi niyan. So settled na, Saturday, 1pm at Christine's place in Malabon. Eh di kanina, nagchachat kami ni Tin, tapos bigla niyang naisip magovernight na lang daw kami ng kids ko doon sa kanila. Punta na lang daw kami ng Friday afternoon doon then Saturday afternoon din kami uuwi. Kasi mahirap nga naman sa mga kids ko ang magbonggang travel galore in one day. Super duper commute lang kasi ang balak ko eh.. So I agreed with her pero sabi ko magpapaalam muna ako kay Melvin.

Eto na.. Nagpaalam ako kanina.. Medyo bumwelo pa ako na super kiss and lambing ako sa kanya..
Tapos nung kumakain na siya, doon na ako nagpaalam na kung pwede mag overnight kami ni Allodia kela Tine.. I've said it in a very nice, jolly and energetic manner with matching giggling pa yan ha! Tapos nagalit siya! Sabi niya, "unang paalam mo Saturday ka lang tapos ngayon, OVERNIGHT NA??! Tapos sa Malabon pa??! Tapos magLRT ka??! Kasama yang anak mo??! AYOKO!".. Marami pa siyang sinabi. Ako naman nung sinigawan na niya ako tumahimik na ako. I knew it! Di niya ako papayagan. Kahit yung Saturday lang, ayaw na rin niya. Malayo daw kasi masyado yung Malabon. Basta! Ang dami pa niyang sinabi..

Naiintindihan ko naman na he's just after our safety. Pero puwede naman na magusap lang kami di ba..? Hindi yung sinisigawan niya ako na parang may mali na akong ginawa.. Ni hindi na nga siya nagisip ng ibang paraan eh. Basta nagsabi na lang siya na hindi puwede. Ang sama ng loob ko. Hindi na niya inisip yung nararamdaman ko. Naiinis ako sa kanya kasi ang insensitive niya. For the past 4 years na naglilive in kami lagi na lang niya akong minamanduhan. Sa totoo lang ayoko na.. Gusto ko na siyang hiwalayan noon pa.. Yung mga kids at love ko lang kasi ang iniisip ko kaya nakakatiis pa ako.. Pero little by little napupuno na din ako. Naalala ko, dati noong 1 year + pa lang si meganne ready na akong igive up siya.. As in ayaw ko na sakanya.. Pero wala akong money noon para magsimula. Ayoko kasing umasa sa parents ko kasi I know na gipit din sila kasi nga my 2 younger sisters are still studying pa. Plus I found out na buntis ulit ako (si Allodia na po yung pinagbubuntis ko dito noon). Kung magdedesisyon ako, 2 buhay na ang maapektuhan. So nagdecide ako na ituloy pa rin relationship namin. Baka kasi magwork pa..Pero ngayon ayoko ng magtiis.

Sige, hahayahan ko siya ulit na masunod ngayon. Pero I'll make sure na next time hindi na.
Maghahanap ako ng work next week. Tapos magiipon lang ako ng konti. Tapos kukunin ko babies ko, aalis na kami dito. Bahala na si batman kung ano magiging effect nito sa mga babies ko.. Pero di na ako magtitiis sa kanya. Ayoko na. Babies ko na lang iisipin ko. Paulit ulit na lang. I'm so fed up. :(